My mission in life is not merely to survive, but to thrive;
and to do so with some passion, some compassion, some humor, and some style.
After all is said and done… I recognize there is this opportunity in my life, right in front of me. So, what am I going to do with it? What is my next move, my next step?
After consistently looking for a job over the last few months, I felt off course. I kept asking what is it I’m really looking for. As I reviewed every job description, I envisioned myself doing the job and if I got that feeling of excitement, I sent my resume. Otherwise, I just kept looking…and looking and looking. I went on several interviews. Some, I never really liked while there were maybe 2 I prayed for. But nothing worked out.
I was beginning to question and doubt myself. Job-hunting is never easy. You will take it personally even though you know it’s not personal at all. You put yourself out there; go through interviews, only to find out you didn’t get the job. Then, you start to question why you didn’t make an impression, do you really have the skills or are you not good enough…it becomes this endless sabotage of yourself… a vicious cycle. I went in circles week after week. In the last 8+ years, I had been feeling confident in my skills and abilities as I developed them, year after year. I felt good about myself and I knew what I had to offer. But none of that mattered when job hunting became personal and each passing opportunity became a rejection.
So, I had to be conscious about what I was thinking and feeling. I couldn’t take it personally. Someone I recently met told me that job-hunting is like dating online. Everything can look good on paper, credentials, biography, even pictures. But when 2 people meet and there is no connection, then there is none. It is what it is. It’s the same thing when someone looks at your resume. You go through an interview and there is no connection, or there isn’t a fit between you and the company culture. It is what it is… and it made perfect sense. Since then, I taught myself to be more aware of my thought pattern. After all, a job is just a job and it will never define who I am.
As I tried to keep myself busy in between job-hunting, I tried to think of other ways to earn some money for myself while looking for the “right job”. Yet, this deep desire inside of me to do something more meaningful kept growing bigger and bigger. I realized, before me lies an opportunity to create a new world and do something better, to make a difference and do something really meaningful. I listened to my heart and figured out what really matters to me. I had one small idea one day, now turned into this great big idea. I had never felt so passionate about something in my life. I am now more focused and working towards something bigger than me. I feel alive and I am determined to make this all happen. I believe this is my purpose, and I’m about to do something about it.
Now, I finally get it. I believe there is a bigger reason why I haven’t found the “right job”. This is my time. Having always had strong faith, I actually believe things happen for a reason. I may not know the reason, but I trust things are planned out for me. I see it now. It was a detour all along. I needed to get off the path to awaken myself and make a change, and listen to my heart. I can’t wait to share it all with you. Coming really soon! :)